Friday, October 7, 2011
Here I am, alone in the darkness where no one can see. Laying on a bed of isolation. As I take a glance, I realize that I am surrounded by nothing but four walls. They are plain and they are suffocating me. I can hear my thoughts as I delve within. The darkness crawls into my thoughts and stings my heart. My heart aches and my thoughts are vivid. I am scared, I am frightened of the unknown. Feelings of agitation begin to form as my feelings of serenity fade away. My soul is detached from this world of corruption. I am alone. I look for an exit, a path where I can find hope. A route of inner peace and tranquility, but I fail. I fail to find serenity, in my shadows of isolation.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
I am an empty shell, I have no emotions and I have no feelings. I am an empty shell, my heart is weak and my life is falling apart. I walk out of the door and I slam the door shut. I am dressed in rage, I smell hell, I see hell, I am burning with rage.
Like grinding flesh from human bone, I am sick of trying to tolerate your crap. I am sick of how you treat me, and how you treat everyone else. I am sick of always giving, and recieving nothing in return.
Like a puzzle within a puzzle, I want to break free from the place I'm in. I cannot hide my anger any longer. I am fed up from wearing that smile. Everything is wrong because nothing is right.
Stop pushing me around and cut me some slack. I am not here for your joy, and I am no longer your toy. I have my own life, I need someone to see me through because the world does not revolve around you.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
"It's alright to let yourself go, as long as you get yourself back" -Mick Jagger
I strongly agree with the above quote. In fact, sometimes the only way to get yourself back is to let yourself go. Let me elaborate what I mean.
I had the hardest battle between my heart and mind. A battle of making a life changing decision. I couldn't let myself move out of something I thought was amazing. Now, after I realized that it was merely an illusion, I am completely and utterly satisfied with my decision.
I went through a tough time getting my life back on track. Overeating, no work outs, missing salon appointments, decrease in social interactions were some of the things that I hardly focused on. I let myself cry, grieve, regret.. Basically, I hit rock bottom for a day.
Things started looking bright the day after, I completely got over it because I allowed myself to express my feelings in every possible way. Now I'm back and stronger than ever and I have big news coming up soon that I can't wait to share!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Something had gone wrong, with the life I planned. You blinded my eyes and hoodwinked my mind. You made me believe that you were all that, that you were right and everyone wasn’t. You deceived me and you made me believe that you were the one. You hid the truth, so that I couldn’t see.
I have put up with that for quite a while. I tried to care, love, appreciate and value. I overlooked numerous things that hurt me about you. I looked past that rough surface, hoping that the light would be there.
I am through all of this; I no longer care about you. You are a walking pack of lies and I will not bother about your insanity and insecurities. You slammed the door and pushed me away from you, you are the one to blame. You wrought a horrible scar in my heart and soul. You have engraved your poison in me.
Let me go, it’s over now.