Shadows of Isolation

Here I am, alone in the darkness where no one can see. Laying on a bed of isolation. As I take a glance, I realize that I am surrounded by nothing but four walls. They are plain and they are suffocating me. I can hear my thoughts as I delve within. The darkness crawls into my thoughts and stings my heart. My heart aches and my thoughts are vivid. I am scared, I am frightened of the unknown. Feelings of agitation begin to form as my feelings of serenity fade away. My soul is detached from this world of corruption. I am alone. I look for an exit, a path where I can find hope. A route of inner peace and tranquility, but I fail. I fail to find serenity, in my shadows of isolation.

Burning with Rage

I am an empty shell, I have no emotions and I have no feelings. I am an empty shell, my heart is weak and my life is falling apart. I walk out of the door and I slam the door shut. I am dressed in rage, I smell hell, I see hell, I am burning with rage.

Like grinding flesh from human bone, I am sick of trying to tolerate your crap. I am sick of how you treat me, and how you treat everyone else. I am sick of always giving, and recieving nothing in return.

Like a puzzle within a puzzle, I want to break free from the place I'm in. I cannot hide my anger any longer. I am fed up from wearing that smile. Everything is wrong because nothing is right.

Stop pushing me around and cut me some slack. I am not here for your joy, and I am no longer your toy. I have my own life, I need someone to see me through because the world does not revolve around you.

Stronger Than Ever

"It's alright to let yourself go, as long as you get yourself back" -Mick Jagger

I strongly agree with the above quote. In fact, sometimes the only way to get yourself back is to let yourself go. Let me elaborate what I mean.

I had the hardest battle between my heart and mind. A battle of making a life changing decision. I couldn't let myself move out of something I thought was amazing. Now, after I realized that it was merely an illusion, I am completely and utterly satisfied with my decision.

I went through a tough time getting my life back on track. Overeating, no work outs, missing salon appointments, decrease in social interactions were some of the things that I hardly focused on. I let myself cry, grieve, regret.. Basically, I hit rock bottom for a day.

Things started looking bright the day after, I completely got over it because I allowed myself to express my feelings in every possible way. Now I'm back and stronger than ever and I have big news coming up soon that I can't wait to share!

It’s over.

Something had gone wrong, with the life I planned. You blinded my eyes and hoodwinked my mind. You made me believe that you were all that, that you were right and everyone wasn’t. You deceived me and you made me believe that you were the one. You hid the truth, so that I couldn’t see.

I have put up with that for quite a while. I tried to care, love, appreciate and value. I overlooked numerous things that hurt me about you. I looked past that rough surface, hoping that the light would be there.

I am through all of this; I no longer care about you. You are a walking pack of lies and I will not bother about your insanity and insecurities. You slammed the door and pushed me away from you, you are the one to blame. You wrought a horrible scar in my heart and soul. You have engraved your poison in me.

Let me go, it’s over now.

Lonely Corridors

I find a chair, I play my music and I take a long deep breath and I look at the people sitting around me. I start thinking of these grey walls. They are sophicating me. I see people everywhere. Black, white, brown and yellow. I am alone, I walk in the hallway.. It is empty and full. People are gathered in groups, the noise makes me feel lonely. I am alone. I am a loner.

I see people everywhere. They are happy, with their friends and their loved ones. I am alone, carrying my books and walking into this sophicating hallway. I am smiling, even though my eyes have lost their sparkle. Memories of him keep flashing by whenever I walk on the smallest inch of this corridor. I remember seeing him, laughing and smiling.. Being as happy as I could ever been. This feeling cuts through my soul like a knife, the feeling of being a stranger even though my friends are all around me.

I am surrounded by the most amazing friends I could ever have, but what's wrong with me? Why am I feeling this way? I am drowning in an ocean of confusion. I miss him so much, it hurts.

Lost Without You

I've been going through a really hard time lately. Writing my feelings down usually helps in calming me down, so here's what I come up with.

My senses are reeling,
My sanity is drifting apart
The strength of my desire is killing me
I’m consumed by the fire

Whenever we’re apart,
My days feel so lonely
If not for you, I’d be lost
Searching for my other half

Your sweet affection never fails me
You love me, no matter how bad things get
I can be myself with you,
Because you accept me the way I am

I am happy you chose me from the rest
And I am proud because I know I got the best
I love you baby,
And will always do.

Cheers to New Beginnings

What appears to be the end may really be a new beginning.

I'm practically done with my exams for this semester. Well, I still have one more exam to go but it is just a Writing Exam; which means that I am stress freed already!

Yes, I know that I have not updated my blog for a while now, and that is what I am going to start doing from now on.

So I am an HCT-er. In other words, I study at Higher College of Technology, majoring in Information Technology -wow that sounds pretty sophisticated. I never really thought I would study IT but I am actually enjoying it.

College life is amazing, I have everything I ever wanted. My friends are awesome, classes are fun, lecturers are amusing.. Everything's just where it is supposed to be. OK, the reason I have blabbed about my college a lot is because it has become a very big part of my life, possibly, the most fun part of all.

With my exams done and all, I hope that I will update my blog pretty often.

Cheers to New Beginnings!

Dawn of a New Era

We are in the last year of 2008. In fact, we are only 12 days away from 2009! I don't know about you guys but this year has flawn by so fast. It had a lot of ups and downs, tears and regrets.. Above all, it has brought along many successes too.

In the year 2008, I have experienced things that I have never experienced in my life before. For example, I've graduated from high school, started college, met new people that are now a big part of my life. I have also started my driving lessons. Basically, I have started a whole new chapter in my life in the year 2008. And I'm certainly looking forward for 2009.

My new year's resolutions are:

- Work hard to achieve a better GPA
- Be a better muslim
- Grow my nails
- Lose weight
- Get my driving licence

To all my classmates..

Dear classmates of '08,


The time has finally come, for us to depart. It may feel like the end, but it's just the start. It's our time to spread our wings and to fly high. It's our time to leave, to use what we have learned throughout all those years at Al Sahwa Schools.

My beloved classmates, how can I say farewell to you? Your presence have made this year worthwhile. You've created all the happy moments we spent together. And you've made the sad times seem bearable. Remember the laughs, the dances and the songs during breaks? The anxiety and pain during exams? Remember how we turned a boring lesson into a funny one? We've formed a strong bond this year; a bond that will never be broken.

As we say our goodbyes and cry our last tears, I want you all to look back on the drama and the laughter, and laugh it all off. Oh, how the years have flown fast! Hadn't it all been a blast?

My classmates, I want you to know that you'll always remain in my heart no matter how far we may be. You are the best friends I've ever had. I'll miss you.

Broken Bond

This poem was written around 30 minutes ago; I had this feeling of anger so basicly I wrote exactly what's in my heart.


Broken Bond


Anger builds up rapidly as I see you,
It destroys me like a spreading disease
I’m so close to explosion,
Like a raging volcano.

The harsh, cold words you speak,
Are as hollow as your love
You are the core of evil,
And you’re the one to blame.

I’m trying to control my anger,
But now I realize that it’s time to face my fear
The bond we had is now broken
And the love sparkle has gone.

I wish if you could leave,
Because I’m unable to take it anymore
I’m sitting here, wanting to hide
Just let me be, in a world of peace.

My Teddy Bear

My Teddy Bear

You have filled these gloomy days of mine,
With tenderness and love,
You've taught me how to shine,
And how to conquer sorrow,

When I was in fear
I knew that there was no remedy
However, you gave me strength to hold on,
And reminded me of hope,

Every blemished night, has a shining day
Every darkened sky, has a lighting ray
These were your wise words
So cherished yet undeniable

I close my eyes every night
Wishing that you would turn real
But I know that you'll only exist
In my sweetest dreams

The Night Glory

The Night Glory

The silver gleam of stars,

The turquoise reflection on the sea,

As I stroll along the beach

Under a dark blue sky

The vibrant breeze,

Awakens my soul,

With its bewitching, enchanting song

Whistling out its addictive tune,

The peace and quiet of the night

Makes me feel calm and tranquil

It's a sacred, special time

Where people are put to settle

The glory of the night

Is wrapping around me

So graceful, with beauty

And sparkling clean

If only it could last forever,

And there was nothing waiting to sever,

But life must continue,

So I save my precious minutes of nighttime, while the sun rises fast.

Footprints of a Friend

Now I glance back,
And I take one last look
Tears of sadness and regret
Fall down on my cheeks

Deep down I'm hollow and twisted
Standing on my feet, alive but dead
Every day is a struggle,
And every breath is a fight for survival

I'm left alone in the past
Trapped inside my body
I want to cry,
And shout why?

Why did I have to leave?
Why did you have to go?
Is happiness a dream we can touch,
Or sometimes just can't see?

Sorrow

I know it's been a while since I last posted here.. But I've been sort'f lazy to update my blog. Anyway, I just finished writing a poem and so I thought that I'd share it *since I have no other subject to talk about*.

Sorrow

As I put myself to settle,
I remember my precious loss,
I try to sleep but there is sorrow,
I wake up to see myself grieving.

Sorrow is a feeling I wish was fake,
It makes me lose my mind,
And become hurtful
It is a feeling that makes everyone feel like life is unfair

I know that I'll feel sorrow tomorrow,
Just like I'm feeling now
I hold myself while I cry
Knowing that it won't be any good

I'll be sorrow the next day,
As thoughts haunt my head,
That one thought will exist for a while
Since there is no remedy for Sorrow

Copyright Miss Unique 2007

Who am I?

The deathlike silence surrounds me
As I remember my mislaid past
Tired and bored is how I feel
Sick and weary is how it seems

Sometimes I don't even know,
When I look in the mirror,
These eyes I don't even recognize,
Glare back at me.

So many thoughts, visions and images
Cogently running through my mind
Familiar faces, and empty places
Far from where I dwell

Nobody really knows the real me
Someday, somehow, someone who cares about me will find me.
If I let them do so.

Copyright Miss Unique 2007

A Study in Human Dignity

"Tis true my form is something odd,

But blaming me is blaming God;

Could I create myself anew

I would not fail in pleasing you.
"If I could reach from pole to pole

Or grasp the occan with a span,

I would be measured by the soul;

The mind's the standard of the man."

Human dignity is a person's pride that one can fight hard to keep high. Dignity is not a quality of being highly valued but it is the highest human value itself. It is the ability to behave in a calm, controlled way even in a difficult situation. Ashley Montague wrote a play that was based on a physically deformed person, his name is John Merrick. John Merrick was a beautiful and a unique person. Above all, he had human dignity like no other. However, since John Merrick was severely disfigured many people mistreated him in many ways such as public humiliation, being verbally and physically abused.

John Merrick was born in Leicester in the late nineteenth century. He was a man who was tragically deformed yet charming and intelligent. Merrick was clearly mistreated in many scenes of the play. For instance, he was displayed on a freak show by Ross because of his unique genetic disorder. There, he experienced the public humiliation and the horrified reactions from the public. Furthermore, Fredrick Treves showed Merrick publicly to the anatomy class. He also abused Merrick verbally by calling him animal names.

However, John Merrick responded beautifully to those who abused him. For example, he reacted calmly and respectfully when Miss Sandwich saw him and reacted in horror. Moreover, he did not runaway nor complain when people looked at him in a hideous and a dreadful way during the freak show. Merrick also responded calmly to the brutality of the police.

In my opinion, John Merrick should be treated as any normal human being would. People should learn to respect him as a human being and not as a spectacle. I personally felt pity for John Merrick at first, but then my feelings changed to admiration as the play went on. I believe that we should respect John Merrick, not cry for him. Though, I know that I cannot help crying.

In conclusion, nothing can compromise a person's dignity, not the money, not the fame. Seeing someone so beautiful, dignified, and unique like John Merrick made me realize that he was one of a kind. I certainly think that someone else like him physically or emotionally will never appear again. His life should be taken as an example to everyone.

Your Eyes

This poem is dedicated to a person I truly love and cherish... A person whom God gifted him with beautiful eyes..

Your Eyes

Your eyes are charming
They are exhilarating
Like diamond jewel of the night sky
And grains of dazzling glass in the sand,

Like the sweet scent of oriental lilies
Carrying charm and freshness
The heat of your eyes is irresistible
They are hotter than the rays of the sun

Your eyes shine with sparkling glitters
Mingling with the beauty of your soul
The essence of your eyes washes over me
Flooding me with sensation

Your eyes paint a perfect work of art
And when I see through your eyes
I could see the world
Where my heart fills with joy and I want to cry.

Miss Unique © 7th Feb 2007

In the memory of Steve Irwin

As you know, Steve Irwin aka The Crocodile Hunter was killed by a stingray barb last year.. I wrote a poem for him and I'd like to share it with whoever will read it later.




Farewell Steve Irwin

With sorrow, I depart
Every time I think about it, I fall apart
Nothing can un reveal those hidden impressions
Feelings are more than just sorrow

I'm sad, disheartened and depressed
Grief fills my soul
I have visited Australia Zoo
To see how far you've achieved

The most enthusiastic person you were
The most amazing crocodile hunter I've ever known
You were brave like no one else
You were one of a kind

I am caught in the middle
This feeling is just like a riddle
It is buried deep beneath a murky layer
So close, yet so far away

Nothing is left but the traces of what you left behind
You made hunting crocodiles look easy
When it wasn't even simple
You've helped many orphaned animals

When something went wrong
And it didn't seem right
"Crikey" you would say
Out of all animals, a stingray got you

Now, that you're gone
Everything appears different
You are a true legend
Farewell Steve Irwin.


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The Beauty of Earth

The glittery, sparkling ocean
When steeped on the golden sun
The vivid, mellow sky
Waiting for the arrival of the rain

I stood under the glossy tree
Staring at the beauty of the fragile leaves
Crimson roses are filling the place
Lingering in the magic of the afternoon

Copyright Miss Unique

My Reptile Obsession

It all started when I watched Animal Planet on the gym's TV couple of years back, I was amazed by the animal rescue centers that were available globally. I was also mesmerized by the beauty of the nature..

The next day, I told my parents about this channel and all I know is that I watched Animal Planet ever since that day..

Trust me, reader, watching Animal Planet for a whole day will not make you feel bored ;)